To tell or not to tell...

Over a get together a few days back a senior asked me the "why so glum tonight" question. And he hit bang onto the "girl in life" question. His funda being only 2 things cause grief to men - women or money !! So I told him my sad lil story and his advise was to tell her. Bang on. Whats the downside, he asked? What do you have to lose? Noone really remembers or cares abt the others after leaving. And what if she has even the remotest thing for you?

No ways I countered. Way to risky! classic of me - the risk averse ass#@^ that I am.

But this set me thinking...what if....

Ok, if all this is making me asound like the average 15 year old ranting - its quite uncharacteristic of me :) I mean the ranting!

Ok. I have never been in love before. And this is killing me. Why me? I mean why do I have to fall for the first time in my life madly in love with a girl who is so well settled and happy with a nice friend :( this is killing me! I swear to myself I'll avoid her, setting my eyes on her unsettles me for a long long period. Specially at this stage in my life. I dont need this. Its way to painful.

Oh the things that could have been :( damn my luck. gish what wouldnt i give just to be with her...