dorm bonding

it is ridiculous but i cant stand the peers in my dorms (strange coz i feel theseniors and juniors are jolly decent folks) - each one of them is,well, repulsive. i guess they can pretty much see my repulsuon in my eyes - they are getting sarcastic,hehe...screw tem bastards :D

Confusions

Sometimes truth shocks me. And that others can see you through shocks me even more. I mean how transparent am I? Yesteraday I went for the regular tea with the group including the lady I really like and my neighbour - who is a professor kind- also happened to be there. And while coming back he starts joking about how I should stop running behind the lady - I mean how obvious was I? Ans if he can see it (or does he really?) then I wonder who cant? thats a sick feeling :( But then there's a part of me which says I 've cared for what others think in the past and that has brought me nothing but pain - so why care about what he or others think. But you know what,I really care about what SHE thinks...and I dont want her to think bad of me :(

so the worst case scenario is,lets say, she knows I like her. What then? If she starts making excuses not to meet then I'll reciprocate the distance. If she carries on with the game,so will I. And damn the onlookers!

Things are thankfully hotting up a litle. 2 quizes tmr,3 classes, an IP submission, 2 group meetings and other readings :) back to the good ole days !

Thirsty again!

A pleasant change - today while discussing things with P I realized that there is something abt technical Greeks that I find interesting and I must master...so here I am with a 3 day single point agenda of mastering the greeks. Will report on the progress.

Right now feeling happy abt having smething to do :) a mission if u will :p